Whassup. I’m back. And still so bloody hot.

Stunning. I’m not going to lie. It has been a very, very difficult 16 months. I’ve been dealing with a lot of trauma, I’m back in therapy, and I think I’m on the mend. I’m starting to feel more like myself, and that makes me feel positive for the future.

It’s been shit. I’ve been focusing on getting my brain better and getting back to myself, which means a lot of creative projects have been put on hold. The job hunt can wait, the scripts can wait: my health comes first. But then I was thinking the other day- writing and creating is a huge part of who I am, and I want to get back to being that person again. Unfortunately, all I’m thinking about is the trauma, and I don’t really want to write about that. No thank you! So I’ve hit a bit of a mental block, and instead play a lot of Candy Crush. I’m on level 4928. I am crushing it.

One thing my therapist suggested to me is Morning Pages. The basic concept is: first thing you do when you wake up is write three pages of unfiltered, stream of conscious thought. Literally, wake up and write. Don’t think about what you’re writing, just write. Now, I don’t do this first thing in the morning, because I am a rebel, but I have found it helps SO much. Sure, my hand gets a bit sore, btu my mind gets better.

I thought I would try do this a bit more regularly, and on here. Mainly to save my cute wrists from all that manual labour. But also to just get me into a routine, and who knows? Maybe after a month of ramblings, I’ll find an idea for a script.

I’ll try and start tomorrow and BOOM! Back in da game.