On Sunday 19th January 2020, my oldest sister Lavasa passed away. She was 49.

It was out of the blue and came as quite a shock. My immediate thoughts went to my parents (particularly my mum) and my nephew (her son). For the next few days they were my priority. Doing anything I could to help them through this.

I’ve had a few days now to figure out my own feelings. I had a difficult relationship with my sister, so knowing how to feel was very confusing.  I’m still processing a lot of things, but, well, I’m sad. I’m sad for her. I’m sad for my mum. I’m sad for my nephew. I’m sad for the family as a whole.

It’s been a horrible week.